the dust settles...

So the wedding has been over for a few months now, and I've had no problem settling back into my old routine, the only problem is I feel like I need more in my life now that constant worry about the wedding has subsided. Don't get me wrong, I am NOT one of those brides who misses the wedding and wishes she could do it all over again. Truth is, I'm ready to move onto bigger and better things. So the obvious question is...when are you going to start trying for children? I'd love to say today, or tomorrow, but in reality, that day may be much farther off than I anticipated when my husband and I said I do. The economy sucks, no news flash there, and S is having problems finding what we have dubbed a "Big Boy Job." Okay, that is understandable. We don't have money for a down payment on a house. So, I'm attempting to save that tidy sum, not that we'd be able to get a house anyways, because we'd like to move to a location closer to wherever it is that S ends up with a job at. So...I'm stuck in purgatory. I can't really plan for the future (a hobby of mine that I've practice religiously since the age of 5) and I can work toward a goal with the down payment, but it seems so unrealistic at this point that part of me questions the point. I'm well aware that this part of my life will happen when the good lord is ready for it to happen, and probably when I least expect it, but I've never been the best at functioning on someone elses schedule. The end result, or conclusion to this all... I have none. I'm trying to take one day at a time. Have a good day at work, focus on me and who I want to be, be creative, be inspired, dream more, relax more, enjoy more. This week has been good. Hopefully, next week can be just as good if not better. And when the next sandstorm comes through, I'll know just where we keep the broom.